Disgusted

Today I'm complaining about the R350 grant . I'm unemployed for the last 4 years . Since this grant came in I have never received a cent. Yes I have worked all my life yes I was SARS REGISTERED BECAUSE I PAYED TAX ..IVE SUBMITTED BANK DETAILS EVERYTHING. BELIEVE ME THERE ARE PEOPLE EVEN SOME OF MY FRIENDS RECEIVING THIS MONEY AND THEY HAVE TOP JOBS. IM UNEMPLOYED AND I DONT GET. MMMMM WELL I SURVIVED SO FAR BUT IM AT MY WITS END . I JUST KEEP QUIET WHEN THEY BRAG ABOUT THEIR DATES THEY GET AND I FEEL ASHAMED . I HAVE BEEN APPROVED FOR 12 MONTHS BUT NO PAYDATES. AND THAT WAS APPEALS COZ I GAVE UP START AGAIN GAVE UP . ECT.HOW TO RESOLVE LORD HAVE MERCY.