Pure ******, Hatred and **************

I am unable to put down on paper or internet the kind of ****** and ************** I experienced at the two hospitals. I have never come across that in any hospital, even government. The hatred and pure contempt fron the doctor on Sunninghill, Dr Geldenheys, I cannot remember if thats how its pronounced. And trust me I have been hospitalised and treated by so many doctors. All races. At Sunninghill I get treated like faeces because I am black and I have Bipolar. The minute he heard that, I became a joke. I will not go further because I am taking the matter up with my lawer, mental illness and the MEC.The following day I decide to go to waterfall. Guess who I found there, Geldenheys. But now he knows better because on Sunday I had called him out for. He asks his female friend to see me. She knows the script. I have promised Geldenheys for report. I can see them talking to one another. After my MRI, I want to go home. She starts rambling that I should be hospitalised because there seems to be a cysyt in brain, what if you die tonight, and because I have to refer you to a Neurosurgeon, you will wait 6 months to see him. I tell her I have my own neurosurgeou and am seeing him the following. Suddenly, "I need to call your Psychiatrist". It was just odd because I see my Psychiatrist once a month, I have stabilised in such a way that I am a 'high performing mentally ill person. She calls him, I am sure she told him that in psychosis because when she came back from speaking to a Psychiatrist. She has changed. The same look Geldenheys gave me before is on her face. Pure hatred and disgust. I have not experienced many ****** behavior from white people. So much that I am a member of a 'white' church. My Pastor or Spiritual father is white. I am the kind of black person that stands with white people about farm ****ings. In altercation, I understood why many black people hate whites. Mind you Geldenheys is by the door watching this drama unfold so that he may escape the lawsuit I promised him. And that's when she plays their last card to silence me. She wants to be sent to Rand clinic. Rand clinic is for people who are insane in such a way that they cannot see reality. I said to her whats my mental disorder amd subsequent hospitalised at Rand has anything to do with my pains in my body and deformation. She said and I quote" am going to go there whether you like it or not. I have been given that power, and now I am going to ask someone to give a sedation injection. Yes I will have to commit you involuntary. The nurses are confused becau se they were talking with me the whole afternoon, and if no one read my file you would have never guessed from the way. I was calm and very friendly until I heard someone talk about power that they can send someone tp a mental institution for Geldenheys to avoid a lawsuit. I am not stupid.All Geldenheys needed to say now would be that I am bipolar and I was being " bipolar there at Sunninghill and it was a different Doctor now who now will confirm that the reason he never checked for my pains and deformity was because I am mentally ill anyway. I don't matter in society. He did not even want to touch me. You would have thought my blackness is comtagious he would have gotten it. So my husband and I wanted to go to Sandton medi clinic. You know what he said. That I must remember I am still going to pay. It then just hit me. You think I am Tembisa or Diepsloot. Oh, Lord. Now in Waterfall the imcident is taking another direction.I asked, who gave you the right to admit someone who by all looks and means is stable. Mind you I drove myself there. If I was in psychosis for that matter I would be able to communicate because I would not be in reality. I would be in heaven talking to angels.If you care so much about my life, why are sending me to a facility that house inmates who have ******ed people and they are there to be mentally evaluated. I am in more danger being in Rand Clinic than driving to go to my place. They even convinced my brother. Because now enraged, they now have a case that I was being "Bipolarish". I ask my brother if he knows what happens in Rand. You get an injection that weakens so much when you walk your head falls down as if you are about to bend, salivating. The next day, obviously, your parents attributes thos symptoms as a sign that you really were sick.No matter what you say, no one listens to a mentally ill person. It is as if you are not in the room. Your feelings do not matter. I thought about my late cousin and my uncle who both have mental illnesses and they can only go to a government hospital. I got even more angry. No one will treat like Life Esidimeni. My life does not matter to you. You cant even ask for my name. Does my name even matter. You will hear my voice. Trust me, even if Its the last thing I do in my. No black mentally ill person will ever be subjected to such humiliation. Do you what it does to me when you call me " crazy and just another Lunatic from Diepsloot who cannot eve pay the fees. Waterfall and Sunninghill is for the elite and superior race.

If you go to public forums about Waterfall. It will give you a clear picture. All black persons say they were treated poorly, but all whites reccomend the hospital. Your behaviour is influenced my status in society. Black, poor, and mentally ill.I fought for my life yesterday. I said I am doing this for my cousin and my uncle and every mentally ill person Your voice shall be heard.