Femina Nurse's are a disgusting disgrace

I had the most traumatizing experience when i gave birth to my first born in June 2020. I was induced at 41 weeks, i requested an epidural when i arrived that morning just to make sure everyone knows that i want one when the time comes. When the contractions worsened i reminded them about the epidural and the nurse laughed at me and said it's too late as i passed 6cm dilation. I was 10cm dilated for almost an hour and there was no nurses checking up on me even though i requested pain medication ages ago. My husband went to check where the nurses were and they were chilling at reception having tea and a fat chat. My body naturally started to push and i nearly gave birth by myself until one nurse just casually walked in to fetch something and noticed my contractions were seconds apart and then she asked me "Do i feel pressure?" at this point i couldn't catch my breath to ****ing talk!!! She screamed for the doctor and everyone was running around like headless chickens, nothing was prepared! Baby was born after 3 pushes and while i was being stitched up they couldn't even lift my baby up for me to see her or atleast just inform me that she's ok, eventually 15 minutes later they gave her to me and just left me alone in the room, *at this point my husband had to leave the hospital* no breastfeeding advise or telling me what happens next, i waited 3 hours for my bed to come to take me to my room and when they eventually pitched they wouldn't even help me to the other bed, they refused to touch me*even though i tested negative*, so stitches, bleeding and holding baby and all i had to move over to the other bed myself. They brought my food to me ice cold that night and they put it on the table i couldn't even reach. The nurse was so rude demanding i go pee even if i don't feel like it but she wouldn't help me off the bed which was set so high, so when i climbed off i became faint from the blood loss and i couldn't get back on the bed so i had to lean on the sink until my vision was restored. They forgot to feed me the next day because the nurse forgot to take my order the day before(because of covid the deli downstairs was closed) so i depended on the hospital for food. My husband had to sneak some pies and cooldrinks in for me through he's physiothe******. i was starving everyday. When i requested some tea at about 14:00 the nurses said i can only have tea when its dinner time. They didn't even know how to mix formula for my baby "or they just didnt want to" i struggled to breast feed as my milk did not come in as yet so my baby went hungry. When i asked for boiled water they just never brought me any so i kept using the boiled water that was brought for my tea to mix my babies formula. i was so depressed at this point because no one could visit me, i broke down at reception when they told me i couldn't leave yet because my daughter had to stay another night because of jaundice. i didn't feel fulfilled or joyed that i became a mother, i felt no love at this point and that made me feel like the most horrible person/mother. I had postpartum depression for months and struggled to breast feed because of the trauma. My episiotomy became infected as i was not educated on how to take care of it, i wasn't prescribed any ointment so i just sprayed it with water instead of wiping when i needed the toilet, i had to go to my GP for treatment as it was highly inflamed and the worst pain you can imagine. It took a while to get over this experience, i'm not entirely over it, still quite scarred and have a very deep hatred for this hospital. I do wish i was more prepared *packed snacks and purified water* but gosh i did not expect that i would receive service like this when nurses are meant to be compassionate about what they do, but i do feel comfort knowing i'll never go there again. You ****** me of what was supposed to be the most amazing moment of my life.