Covid Relief Loan ****

I accepted Covid Relief Loan. I am now expected to pay for this loan. But I have no proof that any payments were made to my creditors. I have no proof of the 3 months they said they would pay. I have contacted and e-mailed numerous occasions requesting proof that my creditors were indeed paid. I am still waiting. I keep getting statements but this is not what I have requested. I have no problem paying, but will only pay for the service which was supp****