Authorisation denied

I requested authorisation for breast reduction surgery and it was denied. Daily my life is a struggle I leave life of pain killers. I have constant headache's and back pain, smelly sweat. Difficulty in finding decent clothing its depressing. The surgeon made a request that I suffer the disability called gigantomastia . I have long thin hands and thin shoulders and boom whooping DD 44 size bra. My shoulders can't carry this lot.Because of constant pain killers I have severe haemorrhoids because of constipation. When people are looking at me I wonder is they are looking at the breast or what I'm saying or just me as a person. Its not nice at all. It affects one's self esteem.